Welcome back to the Self Love Confidential Poetry Oracle, where the universe sends you the message you need to hear right now by way of a poem from one of my books.
If you feel like you’ve received a sign, but you’re not sure what it means, this post is for you.
This summer I felt called towards circles. This week I found out why.
Earlier this summer I went to Ojai (my magic place) and felt drawn to circles (I wrote about the experience here). They were everywhere I went. I even bought a piece of art featuring circles on a whim (top left, above) and hung it up in my bedroom — it’s the first thing I see every morning. This last week, three very full months later, I found out why I was meant to have it.
Two weeks ago I started attending movement classes at the aptly named, The Class. On Friday, my instructor Amanda placed a card down on every mat in the room. I was the last one in the room, and only one mat was available. The card that was waiting for me is pictured above. The very same image as my artwork from Ojai, but this time with a message: be at peace.
This delayed gratification — or perhaps I should say — delayed understanding, is also perfectly aligned with my Confession last Thursday about my shifting perspective on my potential. My favorite line from that newsletter:
“My whole perspective on potential has experienced a cataclysmic shift, as has my relationship with time. Maybe my fullest potential wasn’t mine to realize alone. Maybe it is only in moments of community that we get to achieve our fullest expression. I needed my daughter Stella’s help to finish what I started. To reach my project’s potential, and mine. And as this story illustrates, it can take years, even decades, to see your potential all the way through. And I realize now, that’s okay.”
It took time for the signs to reveal their meaning to me, and it took me being in Amanda’s movement class for her to deliver the message. Through community and patience, I got what I needed. Perhaps that is true for all of us, with all things.
I’ve written a lot of poetry about wanting peace. But when I tell you it didn’t feel fully possible until this moment, that’s the truth. Because after what happened, I realize it isn’t just that I’ve always wanted to be at peace: the universe has always wanted peace for me, too. And it wants it for you. The question is: Will you allow it?
Melody, I love how you call this “delayed understanding” - it’s happened to me many times. I like to think of it as the “unfolding of life” and that when we try to rush, push, or force it, we miss it.